Saturday, February 19, 2011

Notes

It's official!

For time being, I'm off from my habit of listening to lagu2 tangkap leleh, rock kapak mahupun irama Malaysia yg boleh membuat hati sayu. Yea..u guys know why. I'm just afraid that I might be too sad that I might can't make it to class until April ~~drama queen~~

But yea... Pengorbanan sesuatu yang pasti untuk bahagia, untuk berjaya... And this is the path I choose... saya tak menyesal, cuma kekadang menangis sendiri sesikit memikirkan, apa yg ko tgh buat ni Syeda.... dah takde keje lain g duduk jauh2 dr laki ko? huhuhu.....-exaggerate namanya tuh.

This is one long separation... Being apart is just not my style. I'm used to always be together with my loved ones... And in this case, En Anda. We never been far from each other for this long.... hurmmm...Kalau nak mengharapkan ibu ke, ayah ke, adik2 ke, abg ke, sampai ke sini...tak tentu tarikh mahupun tahun bila yang akan ter-realisasi (?)... Cuma kehadiran En Anda je yg boleh dinanti kerana insya Allah dia pasti ke mari....

Namun bila memandang Faris, rindu itu jadi terubat. Air mata yang tumpah tak sebanyak saat mula2 dtg bersama En Anda pada 2008. At least by having him with me, I feel stronger as he only have ME....Lelah melayan dia setiap hari, banyak saya mengadu pada En Anda...tp bukan bermakna sy bosan... Untung ada teman yang faham... Ada housemate yang sanggup menerima karenah anak sekecil Faris yang ada masa sukar dijangka.... Thanks, Mbak Atie...

Frankly speaking, this temporary-long-distance-relationship makes us realize that we need each other more than we know... He'll call everyday without fail. We'll chat like there's no tomorrow and like it's just a call from local landline to another. We enjoy each other's company even though we didn't get to see each other... At least I know that we can survive being apart for quite sometimes... Tapi idealnya, pastinya kami ingin bersama.... Berdua melihat Faris membesar dan melalui pengalaman baru di tanah kelahirannya sendiri....

Saat ini salju mulai mencair dan hijau daun terlihat lagi... Spring is coming and I hope it will swept all the winter tears..

En Anda, please be here soon..... We miss you so much...

Hugs,

Faris & Ibu.