Sunday, February 15, 2009

It is written...

What is the meaning of motherhood in educational endeavor?

Well, I just can imagine one word to describe this: SACRIFICE.... And I mean A LOT of sacrifices...

As I wrote in my previous post, being a mom and a student, simultaneously, simply means that you have to give more, even more than you ever gave before...

Faris is almost 3 months old now.. Since he was born, I don't remember sleeping for 6 straight hours like I always do (that is at night, let alone taking naps during the day).. And I don't remember not rushing back from class everyday just to make sure he's not hungry for being at home for at least 3 hours without me.. (Well, he don't enjoy breastfeeds from a 'fake' boobs...:P) I've to really plan what my nights are going to be like, as I have to do the readings, finish the assignments, cooking for my beloved hubby, and of course spend some time to cuddle the baby... As a wife, your hubby needs more than just good foods. He also need a friend whom he can talk to, share the story with, and share the love he had... And I may say, it is not EASY to arrange all that....

Sometimes, it's kinda tiring.. You'll be the first to wake up everyday (actually you never sleep well at all..), you'll be the one who serve breakfast (by cooking and by breastfeeding..), before you get ready to class, you have to make sure the baby got his bath, well-dressed and full with milk.. Sometimes you even face with dilemma, whether to feed him or to pump the milk first (Moms will understand this, after you feed your baby, most probably you don't have enough milk to be pumped..huhu).. and for me, the hardest part is when you want to make the first step out of your door, seeing him staring at you with that beautiful eyes...ohohohoh....

Urgghh....You'll always wish to turn back...

Amidst that 'huru-harare' life, being a mom actually teaches you to be strong...Stronger than you ever think you could be... Read this:

  • When you think you can't afford to wake up every hour at night and attend class during the day, you actually can...And you have no problem to concentrate, at all....
  • When you think 24 hours everyday is not enough for you to finish all that readings, assignments, chores, and managing your baby, you actually have more than enough (and you still can enjoy facebook-ing..:P)..~now that's what we call Time Management Skills..
  • When you feel like the day is not by your side, as you feel like giving up everything, surprisingly, you still have enough strength to play with your baby (and be nice to his dad...:P)

On the other hand, being a mom reveals talents you (or at least me..) never knew we had before....such as:

  • 'Fast-cooking' skills
  • Baby-shopping skills
  • 'Typing-and-breastfeeding-at-the-same-time's' skills...:D
  • Setting up baby's car seat......................and
  • Translating baby's cries......(Actually this is the hardest part...)


I never regret my decision to be a mom...NEVER...I'm glad that my decision have turned myself into a new me which is more matured (I betcha..), and give me the satisfaction I never had before...

But the best lesson of becoming a mom, is to really adore and appreciates mom's love...And I just adore the ideal motherhood feelings... I understand now why a women called ibu, mak, mama, mummy, bonda or ummi (whatever you call them) have a very high status in our life.. Nothing could ever replaced their eternal, unconditional love, sincerity and sacrifices for us.. They just deserves it more than anybody else..

The funniest part of me being a mum is I knew at first place that this is what I'll get through when I decided to bring Faris to this world..during the hardest and loneliest period in my life (at least until today)....But I still pushed through it until he was born....

And they asked me, why on earth do I still want to do it when I know that I'm going to face all this?

Well......

It's a motherhood call, I guess... Or perhaps, simply because...


...D: It is written.

11 comments:

MiZz AiRa said...

This is beautifully written. Make sure keep this for Faris to read it one day. Maybe b4 dier balik 'kampung' to IL nnt? =)

Syeda4g said...

Yes, dear..
I just hope that blogspot will remain free and Faris would still be able to retrieve this post when he is missing me from UIUC...heheh(am I daydreaming?..lol)

nhuda82 said...

Hehehe.... Ibu Faris is a supermom! Kagum lah.

Syeda Z said...

dear,

slalu mana2 newmum will be getting a help (as in maid) and still complaint tk cukup time for themselves (i pun plan cmtu, mcm tk cukup tgn je if tkde help). tp tengokla u ni!

i now bestow upon u superwoman title! hehe

kdg2 i pun mcm takut je nak enter motherhood ni (skip trus, dr singleton terus pg motherhood..hehe) sebab like you said, have to sacrifice a lot of thgs (in mind now, sleeping time, huha huha with friends time, and oso alone-quiet time) but i guess all those nothing kan if compared to the smiles written on the baby.

ah!!! i want baby too!

like pronto.

hehe

Syeda4g said...

Huda: I lebih kagum kat ibu2 kita yg berjaya besarkan kita sampai ke cni..huhu..nway..thanks..

Dear:
Thank you lah coz bestowing me with the title..

I know, u mmg suka bebudak, n i tak heran kalau u tetibe skipp 'wedding-without-child-hood' and nak terus g kat motherhood feelings...:)

I'm still learning to be a good mom,dear..

Still...:)

kidin said...

I've always been impressed by the strength and perserverance of mothers caring for their babies. They go through the ardous task of carrying an unborn with all the discomfort and back ache and yet light up with the most beautiful smile whenever the fetus moves. They have the same beautiful smile when they hold their newborn after enduring the pain of childbirth. Most wake up in the middle of the night without ever complaining or getting upset with their babies. They nurse their newborns, without ever uttering a harsh word, regardless how tired they might be. The love and care they devote to their children may never stop throughout their lives. I suppose there are so many things that mothers go through in raising their children that fathers may never know. For all these dedication, I stand and salute you moms out there.

Syeda4g said...

To really explain motherhood, we really have to be mother first..Then only we'll know...

Thanks to you,Dr..As you are the one who inspiring me to wrote this piece..(plus Slumdog Millionaire which really touched my heart!)

And for all the compliments to moms, I thank you, Dr. Kidin...:)

kidin said...

I'm very happy to explicitly acknowledge the contributions of all moms, including my own mak and my wife. Let it be known that we men have always, and will continue to appreciate you. We may not say it, or even show it, but moms will always have that special place in our hearts.

aini.marina said...

this post leaves my eyes tear-filled.

beatiful eye-opener.


thanks kak syeda.

may you grow stronger by the day.


with love.

Jamaloogy said...

I like to change the word sacrifice..
to "love"..



well, want to share this

There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it.

"Edith Wharton (1862 - 1937)"

Syeda4g said...

Love needs no explaination. it comes beyond any other thing...:)

Thanks to all!